无心

这样的季节，晴雨交替，心情也像过山车一样上下起伏，自己似乎都很难把握和描述这样的状态。。
听着忧郁的旋律也会开始忧伤，听着跳动的音符也似乎想要跟着起舞，一直都是处在一个很没有自我的感觉中。
Always feel that there is kind of thing,let's say,darkness in my heart. I have been tried to drive it away but failed .
He hided in somewhere when I chased him and threaten me back when I was tired.
It is very difficult to define the statement. You cannot breathe, you cannot think,you do not want to do anythings other than staying at the bed and thinking about nothing. You just feel anxious n anxious n anxious and even you do not know what you are worrying about.
You never thought about why you was like that and what exactly u can do to alleviate all these.Also you never thought about the real things that is now happening in you life,which is the things you ought to care for.
At last,he,the darkness,is the dominance.He is filled of the air and strench around. 
I alway felt out of vigour.Now I am hopeless to fight with him.I think I have to find another way to survive.
I am now trying to get along with him. To adjust ,to comfort, to relief, in a word,to make him stay still n make me feel better.

It is quite hard to express the mood by Chinese. But it make me even more speechless by English that is not my mothertongue.
It is quite wired that I feel that English wil be the better choice. Although not so exactly,at least done.


昨天看到一本书上说，如果去探望病人要送绿色的盆栽植物，因为可以避免病人因为看到鲜花凋谢后不必要的伤感，而且绿色可以带给人生机（想到宫里的律好像也是这样的），就来个绿意盎然吧。